{"id":29502,"date":"2017-02-14T08:15:15","date_gmt":"2017-02-14T16:15:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/?p=29502"},"modified":"2017-02-14T10:22:52","modified_gmt":"2017-02-14T18:22:52","slug":"so-onward-and-artward","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/2017\/02\/14\/so-onward-and-artward\/","title":{"rendered":"So. Onward. And artward."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I learned yesterday that the gift Toyota is not going to be. Turned out it&#8217;s a great vehicle for someone who doesn&#8217;t mind getting out and doing minor wrenching once in a while, but not for someone who just wants to get in and go.<\/p>\n<p>But I had fun exchanging messages and receiving photos from FishOrMan (and with another friend who offered to join the Toyota conspiracy) and I consider the offer(s) and consequences to be part of the magic that touches my life so often.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s been a rough six or seven days. There&#8217;s been good news (no surgery! Toyota offer) but also more stresses and troubles than I&#8217;ve written about. I found that when FishOrMan emailed to say he didn&#8217;t think his 4-Runner was for me, I felt peaceful and happy about the decision. Somehow it was one more thing I didn&#8217;t have to think about.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been having a fine time on foot. It&#8217;s been mind-easing not to think about car repairs for a while. And heaven knows Ava thinks walking even more than usual is the way to live. I&#8217;ll take Old Blue in for a second opinion. If she&#8217;s fixable, I&#8217;ll get her fixed. If not, another vehicle will come along when the time is right. I can still drive Old Blue short distances &#8212; to the grocery store, for instance, or to Furrydoc&#8217;s clinic in an emergency. Who knows, maybe the <a href=\"http:\/\/www.autoblog.com\/2016\/03\/11\/elio-motors-delays-trike-deliveries-2017\/\" target=\"_blank\">Elio will eventually become something other than vaporware<\/a> and endlessly upbeat PR.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>And there&#8217;s always that magic. Which I think of as the work of good friends, good fortune, and good freedomista hearts, but which some of those friends are more inclined to see as God&#8217;s providence coupled with human action.<\/p>\n<p>One of those moments struck yesterday, as well. It arrived at my PO box in an envelope that held both $100 and a dare. Not merely a dare, but a double dare. The sender didn&#8217;t go as far as making it a double-DOG-dare. But still. It was serious stuff.<\/p>\n<p>For my friend&#8217;s privacy, I can&#8217;t give much background. So this might seem out of context. I&#8217;ll just ask you to understand that the money and the dare were a culmination of a long, sometimes challenging dialog between skeptical me and one of the most devout (though unconventionally devout) people I know. A dialog that (unusually in these cases) has never been about proselytizing, but only about faith and God and the intellect and art and many wide-ranging things.<\/p>\n<p>So to the dare: After I quickly pocketed the money (because I was in a public place and even in this friendly small town it doesn&#8217;t do to wave random pictures of Ulysses S. Grant around in public), I read the accompanying letter.<\/p>\n<p>The $100 is meant to be the deposit on a week-long icon-painting class to be held at a monastery here in the PNW this summer. The class requires staying at the remote, rural location (a feature, not a bug). The class fee is $500. Room and board with the contemplative community is another $210 or thereabouts. Somebody has to take care of my animals. And somehow I have to <em>get there<\/em>. (I can reach the nearest town by bus, but the last 12 or 15 miles gets tricky.)<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"400\" height=\"300\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-29510\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I accepted the dare immediately. I sent off to the monastery for class registration papers as soon as I got home. There was no doubt from the second I read the letter.<\/p>\n<p>If this all seems totally off-the-wall, I may just have to leave you with that impression. My friend didn&#8217;t realize, and I find it impossible to explain, that icon painting, remote monasteries, and the chance to learn an artform that&#8217;s both highly formalized and devotional has meaning for me that goes both back to my roots and back to the three hours I spent in a float tank last week.<\/p>\n<p>Is it completely impractical to consider accepting this dare &#8212; double-dare! &#8212; at a time when half my house still needs to be raised and repaired? While Old Blue is sitting lame and neglected in the driveway? When I&#8217;ve gotten this far only through the help of friends?<\/p>\n<p>Yep. Completely impractical. Crazy, nutz. Call it what you will. Shake your head, click your tongue. If I were you, I&#8217;d probably type <em>tsk-tsk<\/em> into my computer.<\/p>\n<p>But I&#8217;ll also call it absolutely necessary. Necessary to heart and soul. Necessary to follow where my friend, my inner voice, and those hours in the float tank are sending me.<\/p>\n<p>How to make it happen &#8230; that&#8217;s still ahead. Metals prices are up; I have a few coins I could sell. I still have a bit of my generator fund, no longer needed since <a href=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/2016\/12\/29\/flabbergasted\/\" target=\"_blank\">the gift of the magical Honda<\/a>. I won&#8217;t touch the house-foundation fund. I did have to tap into it to pay doctors (ptooey!), but that fund is strictly for practical, necessary things.<\/p>\n<p>And though I don&#8217;t intend to ask (because I&#8217;ve already received more than my share), maybe other souls who value impractical aesthetics and wild leaps of faith will want to contribute to the crazy cause. <\/p>\n<p>But &#8230; dare enthusiastically accepted.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon-02.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon-02.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"709\" height=\"900\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-29511\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon-02.jpg 709w, https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon-02-355x450.jpg 355w, https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/icon-02-630x800.jpg 630w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 709px) 100vw, 709px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/fineartamerica.com\/featured\/my-angel-modern-icon-luiza-vizoli.html\" target=\"_blank\">Source.<\/a> (That one&#8217;s not really an icon and I gather that it&#8217;s a huge no-no, at least in purist eyes, to paint an icon on canvas rather than on board. But it turned up in my image search for icon painting and I thought it was charming.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I learned yesterday that the gift Toyota is not going to be. Turned out it&#8217;s a great vehicle for someone who doesn&#8217;t mind getting out and doing minor wrenching once in a while, but not for someone who just wants to get in and go. But I had fun exchanging messages and receiving photos from FishOrMan (and with another friend who offered to join the Toyota conspiracy) and I consider the offer(s) and consequences to be part of the magic that touches my life so often. It&#8217;s been a rough six or seven days. There&#8217;s been good news (no surgery!&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.clairewolfe.com\/blog\/2017\/02\/14\/so-onward-and-artward\/\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">So. Onward. 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